I have one 6 hour shift left in my preceptorship, and 2 final exams left. Then I graduate. It feels both complely unreal and completely terrifying because I still feel so inept that I can't do this on my own yet.
I've been precepting on an oncology unit at a local hospital. It's been going well but I feel like in some ways it's almost ruined my life. Really it's because of the hours. I have to work the night shift for my preceptorship, but I work the day shift for my regular job. So if I want to keep my job/health insurance/etc, I just don't get to sleep.
So it's really mixed right now in terms of how I feel, but really right now I am really relieved it's almost over. I've had to do things the human body isn't really supposed to do, in terms of staying up numbers of hours. It sucks and it's been the hardest thing I've ever done.
I am not sure if I'd do it over again if I had another chance honestly. Don't believe them when they say your GPA will help you in your placement, because nights was my last choice. I really figured since I have a 4.0 I would have more of my requests for my placement honored. If I knew it would be like this and working nights, I think I would have taken a regular clinical once a week during the day. It's been that awful to do nights/days at the same time.
