So, I am in my last few weeks of programming computers and am preparing for my licensure exam. It's really hard to stay on track, really. I'm worried about all kinds of things happening if I don't pass, or if I do.
I am afraid because when I went to new grad day at this hospital, everyone was young and just graduating college at a 4 year school and had all these opportunities I didn't have. I still got a job here, but I worry that I am somehow an impostor and will get "outed" quickly.
I worry that I won't be cut out for the ICU and I'll fail out of orientation on some stupid test.
I worry I'll fail the NCLEX and they'll fire me.
I know these things are stupid, and none of them are really that realistic. But I am scared to death, and lately am not feeling very competent.
Everyone was so happy to graduate, except me. I loved school, I did so well there in a controlled environment and I don't know what to do outside that. It's stupid, but there.
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